I have a big dream. But little hope.

I can't seem to concentrate on studying knowing that there's something else i -want- to do besides slog away at academia.

I don't -know- if my dream can be realised, but i think when i pluck up enough courage, i'll give it a shot. But i'm afraid i'll fail. I'm afraid i'll be rejected. It'd be like being doused by icy water... except worse.

Oh God, you've always been kind to me. I pray that you give me the courage to at least -try- and fulfil this dream. Amen.

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