You are a GRAMMAR GOD!

Congratulations! If your mission in life
is not already to preserve the English
tongue, it should be. You can smell a
grammatical inaccuracy from fifty yards.
Your speech is revered by the underlings,
though some may blaspheme and call you a
snob. They're just jealous. Go out there
and change the world.

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Disappointed that you get get defensive when i'm trying to tell you how i'm feeling. Because to you it's always about me. Because i am so self-centred.

Perhaps i am, but that doesn't discount that you are either.

Disappointed because when i started being a 'yes-man' you seemed more than happy to sort things out again when all i was trying to do before was just that.

Disappointed because it seems that when i'm being all obliging and optimistic you tell me it's what you want but the only catch is that the 180 degree turn is sudden and weird.

So that's all that bugs you. The sudden change. But you like me acting like someone i'm completely not.

You say you want me for me. I think you want me to be someone else.

Being optimistic is not in my nature. I am PESSIMISTIC by nature. I harp on things. I keep talking about it and will only stop when i get it out of my system. I wil bug you for answers because those are the very things i need to help me rationalise and get a grip on the situation.

But that doesn't seem to sit well with you at all.

Perhaps you don't want me for me.

Perhaps you want someone else. Someone that i cannot be without betraying everything that makes me, me.

Don't tell me i should determine what i want to be. I KNOW what i want to be. I AM what i want to be. But you don't seem to be able to like very much of what i am.

Perhaps you should stop trying to make it work out.

Perhaps i can never be the person you hope i can be.

Take me as i am or just let me go.

I wonder how long it'll take you to notice that i'm not really being myself, but what you want me to be.

I feel so disillusioned.

Perhaps no one will be able to love me for me.

I wish i had the strength to make a decision.

I'm so tired.

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