Thursday, November 24, 2005
So my new philosophy is GREAT for these reasons:
1. The cancellation of my Bangkok trip isn't real.
I'm going to Bangkok!2. That life's a bitch isn't real.
Well it still is, but when little joyful things happen... It gives you hope that there's more to life than it being a bitch:) Sunday, November 20, 2005
Solipsism - The theory or view that the self is the only reality.I shall devote myself to solipsism from now on. Because that will mean that:
1. Me hitting my head on the CPU while bending down to pick up my notes wasn't real.
2. My exams aren't real.
3. The cancellation of my Bangkok trip isn't real.
4. Me being fat isn't real.
5. That life is a bitch in general isn't real.
I'm really beginning to dig my new philosophy. Mwee! ^^
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Disappointed. Not with the boyfriend, but with the One i was talking to all night.
We prayed that You'd let him pass the first test if You wanted him to pursue this career.
He passed.
We prayed that You'd help him pass the second test because we thought You wanted him to pursue this career.
He failed.
It's very frustrating when you work towards a goal you think He wants for you, only for Him to pull it out from under your nose just when you're close enough to smell it.
And the flights are all booked so he can only come back next week.
WTF. WTF. WTF. Seriously.
I know You probably have other plans for him, but couldn't You have executed it with a little more tact, and a little less of that infamous twisted sense of humour?I now remember why i don't like putting FAITH in things i cannot fathom. Tuesday, November 15, 2005
" To the being fully alive, the future is not ominous but a promise... of possibilities that are felt as a possession of what is now and here."
- John Dewey
God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide, hold me closely to His side.
With love and strength for each new day, He will make a way...
He will make a way.
In face of problems that seem to overwhelm us by taking over our minds with its devious claws, we sometimes forget that there is a higher power who looks out for us. And when everything seems to be slipping out of control, just remember that it isn't. Because there is that omniscient power out there who has everything planned out for us.
I choose to believe that that higher power is God.
For if i rid myself of the belief that there is no one in this entire galaxy who is in control of my life when it seems to be spiralling out of control, i will most surely be consumed by these troubles and spat out an empty pessimistic shell.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Finally done with all the projects, tests and essays...
Time to start studying now.
Only have one thing to look forward to after the exams...
Bangkok trip with the birby! MWee^^
That is IF he manages to make it back on time.
If he doesn't... He's deader than a dead duck.
I liebs yous too! Monday, November 07, 2005
An impending German test tomorrow, complete with close passage and listening comprehension.
Stupid Microbes presentation at 10am Wed morning.
Lousy, difficult moral philosophy essay due on Thurs.
And after all this, study for the exams which are about in a week and a half's time.
I feel the cold, boney claws of desperation raking at my heart.That feeling you get when schoolwork is the first and last thing you do everyday...
And still the end is nowhere in sight.
I feel the cold, boney claws of desperation raking at my heart...Desperate for a welcome reprieve. Wednesday, November 02, 2005
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want - good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your (online journal if you've got one) and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.
